My day today: 24 Feb 07

I am just trying to create a habit for myself. Write as much as I can everyday. More and more I venture into new areas I start realizing the point that I can take up these challenges better if and only if I can have some confidence going in prior to each challenge. For example, at MIT, Anna University, it struck me during and towards the end of my talk that I could have done it better. Preparation was bad, I agree. But with whatever the preparation that I had and with the material that I have put in the slideware, I really feel I should have delivered it better. There were some external influences though like organizers asked me to reduce the session length since they were supposed to wind up for the President's visit. Even with that in mind, I still feel I should have done better. Basic factor, I figured it out, which was not allowing to do better is nothing but lack of high degree of confidence before going into the situation. This is true with every situation that I walk into and irrespective whether the situation is new or something that I have already had experience with. I guess one thing I can correct: do not leave any stone unturned in terms of preparation which has been the bottleneck for me for so long. I have been not managing my time very well. It worked ok till now since it took only so much out of me to be able to perform the way I am doing it now. But, with my seniority both in professional and personal life increasing, and so the responsibilities and so the number of tasks at hand at any given time, I should really gear up myself and fix time table and also priorities. I want to do it very seriously starting from this week. Let me see how much determination I have. I guess there is no other go. I know I can win if and only if I prepare well.